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Published November 23, 2014 by therasberrypalace

it’s funny how a silly commercial will evoke the opposite emotion.It’s getting closer to Christmas and now the ads begin(before we even celebrate Thanksgiving). There is one for a toy that is supposed to get grandma to buy a toy for the grandchildren.The thought occurred to me that i never had that opportunity.On the other hand,years ago,i saw a Siamese cat with dog from Amazon-it was a pet combo. I can’t recall the series but it was popular at the time. I asked my mother if she would please let me give her the money, order it from her card and have her give me my grand-daughters address.She did,it was paid for and shipped. In the meantime my son’s family moved and it was never forwarded.Of all the things that could happen. We never did find out where it went but it never made it to Alexa.

This commercial only reminds me of all the moments i missed. On the other hand my mother did manage to sneak me in to see Alexa at the in-laws when she came into the world. Some of the moment was robbed because i was made to feel like it i shouldn’t be there and was only given the opportunity because of my mother.It reminds me of all the photos i have of the kids and they ARE wonderful memories of my parents too. There they are hugging the kids. I do cherish the hug that Alexa and i gave each other at dad’s funeral.Actually she walked up to me-i can’t take the credit. It was certainly out of the blue.Cherished.

My mother (again)invited me out to the in laws with my son and grand children when dad died. We went there for dinner. Had it not been for mom i would never have been there. It was very uncomfortable.I don’t think they were even expecting me because as mom stepped in the door,it was shut. I had to knock. I said very little (being an uninvited guest) and the visit was terrible except for the few moments with the grandchildren. I don’t think they hardly knew who i was anyway so that  was awkward;but i made the best of it.One of the most awkward times of my life.

It was difficult.I had just lost dad.Poor mom too. She had 60 years with dad. I couldn’t imagine her without him.Neither could she. I think it’s one of the reasons she passed a year later- on the same date,the 23rd.

Mom was the glue when dad passed away.When mom passed there was no one to stand by my side and help navigate these waters. I was confronted the day before mom’s funeral. It was the most anyone would have anything to do with me. Long enough to be accused of all sorts of things. Devastated. Husband was angry and i couldn’t convince him to let it go. I needed his help(Ménière’s disease)and he simply wouldn’t do it. Not because he was angry with me. He was far too upset at what happened. I was hoping he would take it in,let it go and just go home with me. For a minute I thought he was going to keep calm and at least hold his tongue.False hope.It was the beginning of the end. As i look back i think the end had been there all along.In fact long before mom passed away.Great loss. She and dad were wonderful people. I’m thankful they got to spend the time with their grandchildren and great grandchildren when they did.

Alexa has blocked me on twitter. I’m pretty sure she’s knows who it is.

Not positive but gut feeling says she does. I send ‘tweets’ anyway and follow her profile.

i hope she does well in school. Grand son doesn’t seem to have much interest in social media. There’s a few photos out there. He looks like his father.Alexa reminds me of her mother.

I always thought he would be the blonde and Alexa would end up with dark hair. He has the darker hair and she’s definitely a blonde.

I think she is taking zoology. That would be no surprise. Grandson loves football.No surprise either.

I hate to end this like we’re dropping off a cliff but it’s cold back here and it’s late. We’re going to watch Mass on EWTN in about 15 minutes…not sure where to go with this from here either.It would be a good idea to spend a few days reflecting on it.

Warm up coming. Word is that it comes Monday.For a short.


Pray for the folks in Buffalo NY though. Very hard time there.

bad days will pass





IRS Announces They’ve Found 30,000 Lois Lerner E-mails On Back-up Tapes…

Published November 23, 2014 by therasberrypalace

Originally posted on The Last Refuge:

Amid a massive document dump of news on the Friday before Thanksgiving the IRS announces they have located “additional” emails sought by congressional inquiry.

Remember, AG Eric Holder is effectively gone now, Obama is a lame-duck -and has done the immigration reform he promised- by dictatorial fiat, and the Senate is about to be run by Republican leadership.  As a consequence all of the parachute cords are being severed, and we’ll see a number of political officials reacting to the “every man/woman for themselves” shift.

Remain poised, focused and positive, we’re about to discover a bounty of hidden info… We voted to stop the madness behind the curtain, we’re about to find out what’s there…..

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WASHINGTON DC - Up to 30,000 missing emails sent by former Internal Revenue Service official Lois Lerner have been recovered by the IRS inspector general, five months after they were deemed lost forever.

The U.S…

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Media Blackout on Top Obama Bundler, LGBT Activist Indicted for Child Rape – WUWT

Published November 23, 2014 by therasberrypalace

Originally posted on PUMABydesign001's Blog:

Terrence P Bean crime photo

Terrence P Bean crime photo

Reports concerning the arrest of Terrence P. Bean, a key Obama bundler (and Kingmaker”) who was indicted this week for the 2013 sexual abuse of a 15 year old boy has been for the most part local until this week when Brett M. Decker of USA Today wrote an op-ed in which he also noted the media bias/double standard.

Bean, age 66, Progressive and co-founder of LGBT organizations, Human Rights Campaign and the Gay and Lesbian Victory Fund was indicted on two counts of sodomy in the third degree, a felony, and third degree sex abuse, a misdemeanor.

USA Today by Brett M. Decker

…The scandal is escalating. Thursday, according to local media, Kiah Loy Lawson, allegedly 66-year-old Bean’s 25-year-old former boyfriend, was arrested by the Portland Sex Crimes Unit for sexually abusing the same boy. After the relationship between the two men…

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